The next few months are a bit of a blur.
Suddenly, something that has been your secret for so long, is not a secret anymore. Not only do you have to deal with your own feelings about this, you also have to deal with how everyone else is feeling.
Everyone reacts differently. Some cope, some go to pieces. Some try to understand, some don't even know where to begin. Some constantly ask you if you are ok, some avoid you. You feel as though you are being constantly checked and looked at for signs of self harm and everyone is suddenly treating you differently.
The pressure on you to stop is now massive, but because you are now having to deal with everyone elses feelings too, you feel more guilty than you did before and you have to face the fact that things are going to get a lot worse before they get better.
My personal 23 year battle with self harm. The highs and the lows. The people who have helped me the most. The inspiration from others who have supported me in my recovery and most of all, the happiness that my recovery has brought me.
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